Changes

Its amazing how life changes when you aren't paying attention. I took our youngest son shoe shopping last week and was amazed that my "baby" was now wearing shoes that I can fit into.lol He got the big feet from my side of the family. And he is almost as tall as me.

I can go forever without seeing these things but every once in awhile I will be like WOOOW. My youngest son is 10. That's amazing to me. He is in 5th grade. And yes I am one of those a-typical moms who says "my baby is getting so big" and other sappy things like that. BUT I know not to say that around him, cause I get the eye roll.lol Instead my hubby has to hear it.

Recently, I was looking at pictures on my friend Liz’s Facebook page (check out her blog here http://elizabethdavisle.blogspot.com/), and I couldn’t believe how much our friends have changed in the time since we first started hanging out.

Below is an old pic of me, my friends Liz & Melissa.

When that pic was taken I was dating Clay living in the city, Melissa was with a jabba the hut look alike who treated her horribly and working at sns, and Liz was I believe on the off again edge of an on again off again relationship with a guy everyone detested, and was living with her parents and kids in the city.

Since then, I cut and dyed my  hair.lol I have started working on a degree, Clay and I have gotten married and am living in St. Charles. I went from being the mom of 1 to the mom of 4. I love my kid’s and the family we have created.

 Liz is now married and has had a baby with her husband and is living in South County with her husband and her 4 kids.  Melissa got rid of Jabba and is now engaged to be married to a friend of ours named Matt.  Now those are the major changes, there have also been minor changes for all 3 of us.  It is almost like we are 3 completely different people. I am so proud of all of us. We are in concrete relationships and doing AMAZING.

Below is a picture of 2 of my favorite guy, Luke and Jeff.  At the time of this pic, I believe they were both single. Since this pic was taken Jeff has had a kid and recently gotten married.  This is something I never would have seen coming. But I could NOT be happier for him.

Luke has dated like most of us some really bad choices. He dated one of my sisters for a short time which was very weird, not because she was my sister, but because their relationship just seemed off. Lol He now has a concrete relationship with our friend Alyssa and an ADORABLE son named David.

We are all MILES from where we were just 3 years ago. But they have all been amazing and awesome changes. I think it is fun to look at old pics and see just how much life can change and how quickly. I look forward to watching my friends and family’s lives evolve.

Chaos of life

Life is always complicated.  In some instances it seems that life throws things at you in clusters.  You can either freak out or you can figure it out. Up until lately I have been mainly on the freak out side. Anyone who knows me knows I can freak out about anything.  I have always been GREAT at helping others out of their issues.. But mine have been mountains, even when they were hills.

I have had more stressors lately than I normally do. No, that’s not true I have had more intense stressors, would be more accurate. So with my overly anxious mind you would think that I would really be over the edge. This is not true. And I can think of 2 reasons for this.

First off is faith. I have always been a believer. I was raised to. Lol However, the thought of letting someone else have control over me and my life has been insane to me. So I guess you could say that I have been a compartmental Christian. Lol I let God like everyone else in where I saw fit.  This worked pretty well for the most part. 

In the last few months I have opened myself up on many levels and in my relationship with God I have pulled my head out of my butt and realized he will do what he wants and by ignoring him I can’t control anything. And with that realization I have been able to lower the anxiety in my life. I know that there is a plan for my life and I know that God will not give me more than I can handle. So I live life trying to listen rather than control. And while the stresses are still there, the anxiety is lessened.

 The other reason I can handle things better, is my husband.

As most people know Clay and I have had a chaotic relationship. We came to realization in January that if we were going to have the relationship we wanted we were going to have to start over. Start from scratch and be more mindful of the issues that have caused us problems.  And since then we have had an AMAZING marriage. It’s like we went back 3 ½ years and begun anew. I can honestly say I love my husband more than I ever have. I have what I have always wanted. This doesn’t mean that our relationship is perfect. Cause we are to stubborn for that. It means that we pay more attention to the traps we fell into before and take care of them.

Everyone can see the change in us. Our family and friends have made comments on how you can see the difference in us. And that makes me soo happy. Because sometimes when you make changes you think no one notices.

So I feel overly blessed that I have better and more in-depth relationships to help me through the chaos that is life.

Friday... Friday

Wrote this on Friday and left it on my work computer... Fail I know.. But here is my Friday blog... A few days to late. lol: Its Friday!!!!!!!!!!! Finally Friday has come. It has been a LOOOOOONG week!!!! A couple weeks ago I found out our Company had been sold to a new owner and the company would be moving back to their previous address in Crestwood. This week our company moved to Crestwood from Earth City. Which means a much longer commute for me. Ick! Monday our info at work was sporadic. First it was we were packing over a 2-day period and moving on the second day. By the end of the day it was.. We were moving on the second day. So Issa and I ended up working till after 7pm on Monday to finish packing up the offices and packing stuff in our cars to ensure that our office stuff got moved without being lost. Tuesday I had to run to the Earth City location before heading to the Crestwood location. Ended up with even more stuff in my car. After leaving Earth City… My car decided it didn’t want to go to Crestwood…. So it went nuts… Thankfully I have the most AWESOME parents in the world. My dad put his day on hold drove out to Olive to get me. Used his AAA to get my car towed and took me with all my office crap to the new office and then helped me get it all out. And bought me a soda on top of it… Did I mention he was awesome. Lol The rest of Tuesday was chaotic mess of telling crew guys where to put stuff. Etc. Good news for Tuesday was the guy who bought our Company… Has direct deposit…. YESSS!!! This works especially since our bank is nowhere near work in Crestwood. So now the money goes directly into the bank… Wednesday was another chaotic day. I am pretty impatient so I ended up unburying my new desk and moving it into my office on my own. Lol That thing was heavy!!! Thursday was a chaotic workday… We had the phones on by late Wednesday so Thursday was full of calls and etc. My office was ¼ put together so it was fun trying to do normal everyday stuff without the full structure. I caught up on A LOT of work. So when 5 o’clock came I was GONE. Today is Friday and I have been getting more caught up and finding the surface of my desk. The bins on my desk are starting to empty.. Although I am sure they will refill over time. Lol But considering, Monday was prep work. Tuesday and Wednesday I wasn’t able to do much… The last 2days have been catch up. I already have a crapload of contracts that are going to have to wait till Monday… I get off work in a few hours. And I will go pick my sister up and go home. I plan to relax this weekend. Do as little as possible… Cause Monday its back to normal…

Saturday Ramblings

Its the first Saturday of April... And while life has been pretty chaotic.. Right now is pretty tame. I am sitting on the floor in my living room (yes I am one of those weird people who dont mind the floor), drinking hot chocolate,typing this while my 10 yr old son and my sister play the bible game on ps2.... I can faintly hear my husbands snores iminating from the bedroom... I like it when life is this simple... It makes me happy.

It really is the simple things in life that make me happy. A good joke fom a friend, a good song playing in the background. Goofing off in the car with my 2 teenage sons on the way to Kidzcrossing on the weekends we serve. Jokingly threatining my husbands life when he makes a joke about how clumsy I can be... I love nature the simplistic as well as majestic way the sun shines, the color of leaves, I could go on. I have pictures of the awe and wonder of nature.

I am 30 yrs old and a good night of friends is just being with friends. I love my family and my friends and I treasure the time I have with them. Even more now that those opps are far and few between. I spend as much time with my kids as I can, fully knowing that they are on the verge of not needing us anymore. And while that sucks. I am eager to see what kind of adults they mold into.

This blog has been interupted by an impromptu skype conversation with a friends kid... And sad to say no matter how much I tried she would not believe I lived in the computer... Fail for me. lol

I went to bed last night realizing for the first time in forever. April fools had come and gone without even an attempt at a joke. Shows the changing of time. While I knew it was April 1st. It completly slipped my mind that it was one of my favorite Holidays...

Man Im getting home....

This random blog brought to you by lack of sleep and hot shacoloate. lol